Profile.
This guy above jumping like one gay dude is my bottom line for everything in my life, which includes my future and all. Don't really think you wanna toe on it because you might find your feet missing mysteriously after doing so. Well, again, I am one to be messed around with because I am pretty harmless. I am pursuing Mass Communications currently & I don't see why you can't be my friend because I certainly love making friends! :) Told you I'm this harmless friendly ugly blob of fat ^^
TVXQ, Five treasures & Jaypark are absolutely ♥
Yang Yoseob, Kim Heechul, CNBlue Lee Jonghyun, JoonMir, SHINee Kim Jonghyun.
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Facts.
- i am a 80% cassiopeia & a 5% primadonna & 5% BOICE & 5%Petals & 3%B2UTY & 2%Jaywalker
- i am afraid of anything that's inhumanly, esp cockroaches
- i hate white chocolates
- i want to marry xiahkimjunsu
- my moodswings comes and goes
- i love to bitch a lot
- i think dance is cool
- i love guys with a charming smile and nice nose
- i don't like fakers
- i want to travel, a lot.
- i can draw
- i am extremely lazy
- i am very impatient
- i wanna be skinny
- i love my blackberry
to be continued....
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Declaration.
I don't need anyone to judge me. Be it you being unhappy or disagree with what I write here, you can just chew on your fingers and close the damned windows and start a msn conversation to bitch about me. But let me remind you, those phases? I've been through more than you say "fuck this bitch" and karma goes around, and comes around :)
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Date: Tuesday, June 29, 2010 Time: 6:02 AM Assurance is all I need
Wow, Mass Communication. I probably didn't finished up what I wanted to say earlier on because typing a blog entry on my blackberry is still new to me anyhoo. Yeah, to me, now Mass Comm is like this sophisticated course that I should never touch unless I'm fucking rich because yes, the people in there judges you damn fucking easily. & that's what I want to avoid the most. But then again, it is my interest & where on earth can you find people who doesn't judge easily? I guess, we all have to keep an open mind about things afterall. Shouldn't be so fast to put down judgements anytime. But I'm keeping a positive side regarding my studies which will resume in November. Goodbye, Tourism, I guess I'll never touch you unless Mass Comm kicks me out. I feel quite strong on my stand now, while I was wavering in between the two choices, Sharon talked to me regarding it. I agree on her point because I realized, I will regret my choices someday. I am not one who can stick to one particular routine-like job, I get sick of things very fast. I mean, as much as Mass Comm can change, there will be a dead route someday. But at least, it is more changeable. Leaving the company soon, gonna miss lunches and gossipings & irritation over lame people or the boys ignoring us. It was good meeting the girls, Pearlyn & Abigail anytime, really. Fun and mature bunch. Just that I feel a little out when they talked about clubbing and all because I tend to stay away cos I feel inferior about my looks, apparently. & my figure of course, fat thighs, long waist, broad, shoulders, what can get worse than these? Let's not even go any further to break my heart. Sigh, I guess I am taking my life seriously for once. Yes, I'm going to miss out on the Korea trip, Saipan trip & Japan trip & everything except for HK trip! I feel quite :\ about it but my future is more important than the korean artistes. At least, I want to prove that I am not an irrational fan because I want to do Cassiopeia proud as the mature fans. Another thing I realized with the trend since I was 15 and knew Joey then is, people trying to get attention by having suicidal thoughts & faking it(in a sense, yes, faking it because they dont even DIE from it, you see). It's like they hold a penknife at their wrists, thinking about death when they did a minor cut on the wrist like how a paper will slit your wrist. I'm sure you won't die of that unless you struck the veins. I get quite irritated. I'm sure there are other ways to attract people's attention other than bloody fucking retarded ideas like these. I have my own bad down times as well, death flashed across my mind more than you can think of. I've never spoke to anyone, not even the closest person to me about it. I fake the optimism when the images of my death flashed across my mind. I thought of how I could get banged down by a car when I walk out so I can ditch these sufferings in my life. But I never told anyone. It is pointless, so you need people to assure you that "hey don't die we need you"? Fucking grow up! Plain pointless if you see it. This is why I never stopped that weird guy who joined us for O's and when he sat at the corner while I'm the nearest to him to not cut himself. If they are really seeking death, you feel it. Some....are just plain fucking bullshit. |