Profile.
This guy above jumping like one gay dude is my bottom line for everything in my life, which includes my future and all. Don't really think you wanna toe on it because you might find your feet missing mysteriously after doing so. Well, again, I am one to be messed around with because I am pretty harmless. I am pursuing Mass Communications currently & I don't see why you can't be my friend because I certainly love making friends! :) Told you I'm this harmless friendly ugly blob of fat ^^
TVXQ, Five treasures & Jaypark are absolutely ♥
Yang Yoseob, Kim Heechul, CNBlue Lee Jonghyun, JoonMir, SHINee Kim Jonghyun.
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Facts.
- i am a 80% cassiopeia & a 5% primadonna & 5% BOICE & 5%Petals & 3%B2UTY & 2%Jaywalker
- i am afraid of anything that's inhumanly, esp cockroaches
- i hate white chocolates
- i want to marry xiahkimjunsu
- my moodswings comes and goes
- i love to bitch a lot
- i think dance is cool
- i love guys with a charming smile and nice nose
- i don't like fakers
- i want to travel, a lot.
- i can draw
- i am extremely lazy
- i am very impatient
- i wanna be skinny
- i love my blackberry
to be continued....
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Declaration.
I don't need anyone to judge me. Be it you being unhappy or disagree with what I write here, you can just chew on your fingers and close the damned windows and start a msn conversation to bitch about me. But let me remind you, those phases? I've been through more than you say "fuck this bitch" and karma goes around, and comes around :)
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Date: Wednesday, July 21, 2010 Time: 2:04 AM Giving up or Living it?
Are we really willing to give up our own lives for the sake of our loved ones? That is, without regretting in the later part of the years. Or maybe, can we actually live with the changes and like it? When all the love disappear one day, when the honeymoon period tides over, what really remains? This all makes us wonder and question ourselves and our partners. Some believed in love that would last forever, some believed love is not a thing that will ever happen to them. For me, I'm on the latter. Quoting my aunt, she once said "When you first started dating, it is all about love. Then years later, it is all about relationship. Right after you get a baby, it would be all about kids." Is it really true that love will disappear right after kids? Or maybe, is this the reason why people sought for new partners as they grow older? But one thing I definitely agree on is that love never lasts. Are we actually feeling suffocated from the attention of our loved ones or are we just getting annoyed at his cheesy lines that we once fell for? Before dating, maybe a goodnight message sounds sweet. After dating, a goodnight message is basically classify under "annoying" category in our brains because we are too tired to reply a message. Isn't feeling suffocated by the attention just an excuse for the annoyance of it? Hm. In any way, relating to my own personal life. I don't really understand. You know, if you do too much things, you get way too much attention for good. If you are plain lazy to fight for that attention, people won't even sense your presence. Look, basically, I do love you. I hate you for the way you treat me at times, but I still love you. Because you are the dearest one to me. Sometimes, I really wished that I am not your last option, not an ornament that you had beside you to brag to someone else. On a positive side, yes, you might have been proud of me. But you wouldn't be lying to everyone about me then, right? Sometimes I realized, so what even if I had done my best as a child, a friend, a family? I don't even have a sense of presence anywhere! This marks it all. I've never been of an outspoken person, because I am ashamed of myself. There, I've said it. I forced myself to do things I've never really liked or maybe hating that, for the sake of the people I thought I could trust. But it all comes down to one statement. "One man standing" You can never count on anyone, including your closest one. I'm shutting myself up again, maybe all I need is a mask. |