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This guy above jumping like one gay dude is my bottom line for everything in my life, which includes my future and all. Don't really think you wanna toe on it because you might find your feet missing mysteriously after doing so. Well, again, I am one to be messed around with because I am pretty harmless. I am pursuing Mass Communications currently & I don't see why you can't be my friend because I certainly love making friends! :) Told you I'm this harmless friendly ugly blob of fat ^^


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Facts.
- i love red
- i am a 80% cassiopeia & a 5% primadonna & 5% BOICE & 5%Petals & 3%B2UTY & 2%Jaywalker
- i am afraid of anything that's inhumanly, esp cockroaches
- i hate white chocolates
- i want to marry xiahkimjunsu
- my moodswings comes and goes
- i love to bitch a lot
- i think dance is cool
- i love guys with a charming smile and nice nose
- i don't like fakers
- i want to travel, a lot.
- i can draw well
- i am extremely lazy
- i am very impatient
- i wanna be skinny
- i love my blackberry
to be continued....


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Declaration.

I don't need anyone to judge me. Be it you being unhappy or disagree with what I write here, you can just chew on your fingers and close the damned windows and start a msn conversation to bitch about me. But let me remind you, those phases? I've been through more than you say "fuck this bitch" and karma goes around, and comes around :)



    Date: Thursday, July 15, 2010
    Time: 7:30 PM
The heat that rose,

    The reason why I don't mind being a listening ear because I know how it feels to not have one beside you. But hello, fyi, I am not a depression hotline for you to dial ONLY when you are unhappy or feeling stupid about yourself because you can't make yourself feel better. Not only you need a listening ear, I need one too. I need one who doesn't speak about his/her problems when I bring up mine and not finished, he/she gets it on with hers. I need to have my time. So when you all needed somebody, I'm there, with open ears and a thinking brain. When I needed one, nobody is around for me to speak to. I mean, who can I speak to? I can't speak to my mother, I can't speak to my family, I can't speak to people whom I don't even trust with a pinky.

    I cannot stand the fact that people runs away from problems too easily. They avoid it, threw it in the back of their heads and try to be happy. & when things happened, they come crying, saying that THAT was not what they've wanted. You know, I love to do that when I was younger. But the struggling thing screwing my heart, or rather, conscience suffocates me badly. I decided every problem needs a solution, let it be black or white.

    The fact that every single human is selfish is true. We can't deny. I mean, who hates having more listening ears than lending more people your listening ears. I'm not saying I'm selfless but look, there are times I want to talk really properly. I hate people fooling around when I'm being serious because it goes to shows that you don't even respect my freedom of speech. There you go, I've said it. Yes I don't mind cracking even jokes that might hurt my pride or heart, but look, when it's time to be serious, it's time to quit grinning like a fool and take everything with a pinch of salt. We all need to grow up, have serious talks that actually aids in your life. Of course, I'm not saying that we can't have our fun times joking around. It's just.....that we all should take some things in life seriously so we can do things properly. Hate is a strong word, I know. But this goes to show how much I dislike it, because when whoever did it(including my mum), I get really really pissed.

    You know, some people complains to me that they have no one to turn to when they needed someone. I was thinking, "yeah, I'm probably dead? Text me up / Call me in the midnight and I wake up to pick your damned call and listen to you whining and wailing like a kid about your troubles while I have to keep mine to myself because if I even try to speak a word, you would direct the problems to your own, and you say you NEVER had anyone to turn to?"
    I remembered my english teacher for my O levels actually told me "never" = "did not, not even once" so um I'm probably this soul hanging around on earth with a useless fat body.
    Right, thanks a lot.

    You know, menses are probably hitting me hard because I don't know why do I sound so cold and annoyed all the time now. Sorry for the shit, dudes.


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