Just like the full moon
Every girl has one full moon per month, make it that way. It may be emotionally due to hormones raging(menses), physically or whatsoever. I doubt mine is from the menses, must be the staying in too much. The more you hide yourself in a room, the more depressed you can get. I get worried about a lot of things. I get confused with my own self at times, really. I really like the fact that I can enjoy the peace in the night. I don't like fights and all, really. Neither I like socializing, it's not even my forte, I am only doing it for my future, for my studies. I know this whole load of bullshit is real bad. I mean, depressions gets to one another. If the people around you are more cheerful, there your mood uplifts. I really hate moments like self-detesting. You know you look back in life, you hate yourself for the looks, for the figure, for the personality, for the fashion, for the brains and everything. You seem to be able to pick out everything in yourself that makes yourself nauseous. It's not even healthy to be thinking like this. I really hate it, it makes the world dark(though yes I prefer the night more than morning any time) and all so negative when I'm all around to promote optimism among my friends. Yeah right, what kind of example I am? Idk. Whenever I look at myself, I don't know I excel in what. I suck in everything. My mother's friend told me once before that everybody is given a talent, but what is mine? I can't even write a proper essay, quote my teacher, without fucking it up cos I mixed the American terms with the British terms.
Sometimes, I wished I had the talent to turn atmosphere better, because I seem to always ruin the moments just because my default face is fucked up.
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