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Date: Saturday, July 10, 2010 Time: 8:14 AM The new Gleek?
Pretty angry at myself today, I don't know why too. Woke up feeling angry, which is sort of stupid I know but fuck it, sigh. I slept at 8am today, woke up at 2pm, slept at 7pm, woke up at 9pm. Right, so I'm awake now. Screw my damned body clock. I want some hot chocolate from Starbucks and cheesecake from Secret Recipe, but that all makes me have to walk out which makes me frustrated. I think there's something in my room that makes me feel really frustrating, I don't know what. This suppressing of feelings is like twisting my heart and veins and tying them up with a dead knot, all kind of unhappy emotions will hit me. Like being really emotional, angry and all. I think this house/my room has something that hates me fucking much. Revenge much? Maybe. Or maybe I'm not one who can stick her butt at home though she complains being out too much at times. Sigh, I woke up wishing I could be a little more normal. Be like those girls out there, slap on make up, club & get laid. But really, I can't make myself do it. I wish I could walk my life with shorts all the time because it seems so much easier. Just feeling annoyed I guess. I will walk out to buy my breakfast at 6am(if I am awake still). Tmr is tuition & I feel like throwing my student down already because she kept giving this fuckedup attitude /faints. Just kidding, last thing I want to do is to get into jail. Back to songs, Glee &....life? Sigh. |